I just don't know where to start. This is so hard for me, because I can't think of you without choking up.
I love you. I miss you every minute of every day, and would give anything asked of me, if I could just give you one more hug. If I could just smell your perfume one more time; if I could lay my head in your lap just once more, and feel your hand brush over my hair; if I could feel your lips on my brow, please, just once more. I want to feel your arms around me, hugging me close to you, and most of all, I want to see you smile at me when I tell you I love you.
Uncle Harold did right by me, I want you to know that. You did real good sending me to him, but I still would've given anything to have you back. My heart aches for you, Mama. Sometimes, if I close my eyes and concentrate, I can still hear your voice, your sweet voice telling me everything would be okay.
God, Mama, I've needed you in my life like you wouldn't believe. I messed up good, and I paid for it... but you know what? I think I'm finally on the right path, with the person who loves me, so fiercely, and whom I love more than my own life. He's a wonderful man, Mama. I know you'd love him, too, and accept us for who we are.
I wish I could talk to you, to share my life now with you. I still dream about you, and I talk to you out loud sometimes, even though it's not the same. My heart is so full of love to give, and I will always keep a special part tucked away, just for you.
Thank you for being my Mama...
I love you.
Jack **
Oh God, Sandy, that's the most BEAUTIFUL thing I've ever read. The most amazing precious declaration of love I've ever seen. Damn, I think I've read it over 9 times now, and I've cried my eyes out so bad every time... I was at work first time I read it and I tell you that I didn't give a damn about my boss standing near to me...I started to cry like a baby. I think that's what every mama wanted to hear. It sounds totally like a thing our Jack would say to his mama, and it melted and broke my heart so hard. Poor baby, and poor mama.
Sorry so much if I can not make much sense right now...I'm still overwhelmed and, silly weak of me, crying like a school girl or an old woman, I don't know which one.
VERY GORGEOUS chapter, hon, totally breathtaking. I love it. Finally some joy for our boys, after so much pain and sadness. I loved their wonderful conversation; I loved that Ennis was always near his Jack, and I loved that they are going to see a counselor together. Yeah, many things to figure out still, but they are on their way. I'm so proud of them.
I'll be sad when this story ends, but I hope you write another one soon.
Thank you so much for this. You really touched my heart.
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on 2008-08-12 07:36 pm (UTC)I just don't know where to start. This is so hard for me, because I can't think of you without choking up.
I love you. I miss you every minute of every day, and would give anything asked of me, if I could just give you one more hug. If I could just smell your perfume one more time; if I could lay my head in your lap just once more, and feel your hand brush over my hair; if I could feel your lips on my brow, please, just once more. I want to feel your arms around me, hugging me close to you, and most of all, I want to see you smile at me when I tell you I love you.
Uncle Harold did right by me, I want you to know that. You did real good sending me to him, but I still would've given anything to have you back. My heart aches for you, Mama. Sometimes, if I close my eyes and concentrate, I can still hear your voice, your sweet voice telling me everything would be okay.
God, Mama, I've needed you in my life like you wouldn't believe. I messed up good, and I paid for it... but you know what? I think I'm finally on the right path, with the person who loves me, so fiercely, and whom I love more than my own life. He's a wonderful man, Mama. I know you'd love him, too, and accept us for who we are.
I wish I could talk to you, to share my life now with you. I still dream about you, and I talk to you out loud sometimes, even though it's not the same. My heart is so full of love to give, and I will always keep a special part tucked away, just for you.
Thank you for being my Mama...
I love you.
Jack
**
Oh God, Sandy, that's the most BEAUTIFUL thing I've ever read. The most amazing precious declaration of love I've ever seen. Damn, I think I've read it over 9 times now, and I've cried my eyes out so bad every time...
I was at work first time I read it and I tell you that I didn't give a damn about my boss standing near to me...I started to cry like a baby.
I think that's what every mama wanted to hear. It sounds totally like a thing our Jack would say to his mama, and it melted and broke my heart so hard. Poor baby, and poor mama.
Sorry so much if I can not make much sense right now...I'm still overwhelmed and, silly weak of me, crying like a school girl or an old woman, I don't know which one.
VERY GORGEOUS chapter, hon, totally breathtaking. I love it. Finally some joy for our boys, after so much pain and sadness. I loved their wonderful conversation; I loved that Ennis was always near his Jack, and I loved that they are going to see a counselor together. Yeah, many things to figure out still, but they are on their way. I'm so proud of them.
I'll be sad when this story ends, but I hope you write another one soon.
Thank you so much for this. You really touched my heart.
Lots of love.
Tammy.