Oh, this story is angsty as hell, but I really, really like it. I love the way you portray both Ennis and Jack. I feel for them both, but especially I feel for Jack. He is so confused and tortured, his "voice", his feelings are so vivid and believable to me, you are doing a great job with this! I can totally see why Jack feels out of place, and not worthy of Ennis`s love. It`s only human. And until Jack has solved some of his problems, he won`t be able to let Ennis love him. He has to at least like himself before he can give and receive love. I wish he would start talking to Ennis soon, and let Ennis help him heal. The ending, Jack thinking on Rufus, missing him - it`s a bit unnerving. And poor Ennis, being so patient and understanding, and Jack wanting to scream at him for it. Maybe it`s time for Ennis to be just a bit less understanding, to somehow open Jack`s eyes and make him start talking. This is so hard to read, both of them hurting so much. I love the way you build this up, but have to admit that I can`t wait for Jack to eventually open up, and for them to get closer.:) Loved the flashback, it`s nice to know a bit about their background and how they met. Thank you for this great chapter! Will be looking very much forward to your next update.
Ann